Looking at Self – True story of an ex-Convict

When I was eating at a foot court, a person who was selling key chains came up to me, and introduced as a new church member, and asked me some questions about my sermons, like how to pray in tongue, what it means by certain words of my sermons, etc.  In the conversation, he also told me a story of his past, that he was an ex-Convict, just released out of Prison recently, and since then he found it hard to find employment out there because of his tainted background therefore he is temporarily selling key chain right now.

I know this guy is saved and on fire for Jesus, for I could see the radiance on his face.  And he wants to know more and more of Jesus. But he is still could not stop blaming himself of his mistakes in life over drugs, that put him in prison; and that he has disappointed everyone who loves him, he disappointed God, his parents, and his family.  He also felt like a hypocrite, because he still could not get out of his unclean habits like smoking and drinking.  So, he may be an ex-Convict, but he seemed still living like a Convict, being convicted by his bad-self.

I asked him “what is the difference between you and me?” He could not understand what I meant. I continued “there is no difference between you and me but one”

“No difference: for we both were saved by God’s Grace, You entered prison because your mistake was manifested OUTWARDLY, it was found out openly, while many people including me having our mistakes not manifested outwardly but INWARDLY hidden.  We don’t commit murder but we hated someone somewhere before. We don’t commit adultery but we lust in our mind. And if the truth were to be revealed, every one of us in this world including myself would have to go prison because GOD SEE YOUR HEART.”

“Many people look at their GOOD SELF (self righteous), while you look at your BAD SELF; but BOTH ways are still looking at SELF.  And when you look at self, you will be in a downward spiral, you are out to fail, because your Self will definitely disappoint you, not today may be tomorrow.”

“The difference between you and me is only one: you still look at Self, while, I don’t look at Self, but I look to the perfect man: Jesus Christ, who will never disappoint me, who still loves me even in the midst of my imperfection. Everything I see about Jesus is beautiful, and therefore this life will turn beautiful too…;” because as He is, so are we in this world (1John 4:17).

All point to Jesus


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